March 16th, 2006

Hello everyone!! I have so much going on right now its hard to find where to start!! First of all I am out of the gym for about 2 weeks at least! Sad, but true! Right when I was looking good and full, making great gains in the gym and with my body, but all good things have to come to an end sometime!! I saw a new Doctor about my injuries, I now have 4 blown disks in my back on TOP of the painfull Fibromyalgia!! But this doc wants me off the pain meds that I have been on for 2 yrs!! So as of this past Sat. my detox has begun!! I am in the middle of withdrawels right now, I would not wish this terrible feeling on anyone!! I shake terrible and have bad pain throughout my body, not to mention upset stomach!! I am doing my best to stay focussed!! The doc says I am one tuff chick!! I was on a fentanyl patch for 2 yrs!! And I have been without for 3 days now!! The withdrawels can last up to 2 weeks!! I am so weak I have to think about geeting up for 10 minutes before I actually can!! Then I am so tired and winded that I have to sit back down!! I am telling you this because I want to make people aware what pain meds can do!! This is NO joke!! I am normally an upbeat , fast moving lady with tons of energy, but this has left me weak as a kitten!! So at this point, I am just praying that I can get thru this and live with the pain afterwards!! This to shall pass!! I need to go lay back down now, so please keep me in your prayers and lets hope and pray that I will be back soon and able to do what I need to do to get back on stage this fall!!
All my love & Prayers!
Vicki Nixon